| Kuro-kuro Ko Lamang |
by: Rtn. Chuck Montecillo
Time flies when you're having fun. Gee, what a way to begin my column...
with a cliché! For those who don't know yet (haven't checked the back page), it's my
birthday today, hence the thoughts about time.
In 1977, New Year's day, I was outside looking up at the sky. I was thinking that 1976 had
already past and I was saying goodbye to it (the year 1976). I really liked that year. Not
any specific event or occurrence, just the year itself. It had a nice ring (and
"feel") to it. What do you expect, I was only 7 years old at the time.
Every year that passes, I remember that day. The feeling I had is still very clear in my
head. The way the sky looked and how the clouds moved is still very vivid. It's hard for
me to imagine that 24 years had already past!
My God! I can already say "24 years had past"!
Another day in my life that's memorable was the day I turned 16. This was a special day
for me because this was the day I gained my "consciousness". What I mean by
this, is that all my senses came in to being. Everything around me, be it a building, a
car passing in front of me, a cat stalking its prey in the garden or noticing the facial
expression of the person I am speaking to, was now very noticeable. My awareness had
peaked.
When you were young(er), there were always things that you didn't know about or realize
existed. Then, one day, it all "clicks" in to place. Things make more sense. You
"see" more around you. Life just became more interesting... and complicated.
That's what happened to me on that day.
Since then, I feel I haven't changed. I may have more knowledge but essentially, I am the
same person. 15 years later, I'm still that 16 year old boy.
You may all be saying, "he's only 31 years old. Why is he having a midlife
crisis?" Fear not, RCMA'ers. It's not a midlife crisis. I know I'm still a young guy.
As a matter of fact, I'm just 16 years old, remember?
Each passing year and birthday, I always check to see if there is anything different about
me or in the way I feel. Each year, the answer is nothing has changed. Physically, I'm not
as flexible as I used to be. Mentally, I know more about more specific things than I used
to. However, I still feel the same. It's almost like I'm waiting to grow up.
As a teenager, I was very curious about how it would feel to be an adult. Now that I am
one, it feels just like being a teenager, only I can get away with more!
Life has been very good to me. I've experienced many things and been to many places.
Mistakes, I have a long list. Lessons learned, the list is longer. Overall, I have grown
since my 16th birthday, but I'm thankful that I can still "feel" like that
teenager from 15 years ago.
So, is it just me of do any of you all feel the same way? Are all adults just teenagers
with bigger bank accounts and drive better cars? I hope so. It just seems more fun that
way. If not, I may still grow up one day... with any luck it won't be anytime soon.
Good morning RCMA! |
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